Honestly, I’m tired all the time!!!! I mean I totally understand that I’m going to be tired when I barely sleep… but that’s not the case!!! The word tired doesn’t even do how I actually feel justice. I’d say that it’s more exhausted than anything.
Maybe you understand what I’m talking about. Maybe you’ve done it too! I mean those 5 letters… that one word… is the easiest way to explain it. I know I’M totally guilty of it. Just answering with “I’m tired” or “just tired” (or any variation of it)… really is the easiest way to answer when someone asks me how I’m doing. But I’m probably actually tired only 10% of the time!
I’m lethargic. I’m exhausted. I’m depressed.
Most of the time, I have to talk myself into getting out of bed. Actually, I have to talk myself into doing most things. To eat… to shower… to get a book… to do laundry… you name it and I’ll be tired already. It’s rare nowadays for me to feel like I’m a woman with a plan.
Maybe this is weird…. but I miss the person I was before all of this. Such a go-getter. If I wanted something, I would work for it. If I wanted to do something, I wouldn’t wait for anyone to join me or help me.
….now I ask myself how badly do I want it? Can it wait until tomorrow? Can it wait until it’s sunny outside?
I think I remember reading somewhere that cats sleep for like 16 hours a day… that’s good news for me because Nala is more than willing to stay in bed with me for a long time…
I love it when it snows – the bigger the flakes the better! Snow makes me happy and I love how you can still see at night because of all the snow! Of course I only like it when I’m inside looking out… all comfortable… in my pajamas…. while drinking coffee and only when the snow is fresh! Yeah… you got me. I super-really-majorly dislike being cold!!
I wonder if we’re going to have a white Christmas this year… it’s been so long since it snowed on Christmas Day.
We named him Popcorn because every time he became scared, excited or mad puffs of fur would be seen flying! We got him from Petsmart 19 years ago! Yeah… I called him Old Man Cat (….don’t ask).
It was just this year when we started noticing the changes: he was losing weight, not as energetic, he was sleeping more and more, and he started to have problems with this hind legs. We took him to the vet when he started to lose weight and have a hard time walking. The vet suggested we try to feed him bisque and maybe he’ll gain a little bit of weight. But because he is a senior cat his organs are starting to shut down. The vet also gave him a shot so that he can walk and it was great for a couple of months! Then he needed another shot…
Mom didn’t want to put him down yet… I think she wanted a last Christmas with him. Popcorn was still able to walk, he wasn’t crying in pain, he was eating his bisque and drinking lots of water.
Five days ago… he started meowing in pain. He wasn’t eating anymore and wasn’t drinking (he kept trying to eat and drink but for some reason he couldnt). So my mom and I took him to the vet. It was upsetting for sure… more for my mom and R.
At least he is no longer in pain. He gets to spend Christmas with my Papa.